I don’t even care about you anymore. It’s hard just to become your friend. You’re not that mysterious or exciting to me anymore anyway. I thought you were cool and humble, but you do brag, kinda. Even if it’s subtle. Man, whatever.
Kinda dissappointed.
But, oh well.
Not that you said or thought you were cool, I kinda put that label on you and expected you to keep it up, so it’s unfair to judge you. Even from a far, far distance. But let’s just say, I’m no longer intrigued. Which is probably a good thing for you, anyway!
Mom’s never home for mother’s day.. ever. In my entire life. But that’s what phone call is for tomorrow.
It’s SO cold. My house is always colder than real life. So I might as well go out now to take pictures outside. Thanks dad for DSLR!
Kinda sad he was in a nonhappy mood going to Best Buy. And I was talking! Rare moment of hanging out, even if it’s just four blocks of walking to the store and back, but it brought tears to my eyes.
He wants a iphone 4Gs. He said it’s embarrassing to pull out a basic phone when he is a business owner. I don’t know why that hurt my feelings. He called the phone a stupid phone because it’s not a smartphone. I don’t know..it’s just sad that people’s standards are so high to be respected. I know phones don’t have feelings, but…I’d like to think inanimate objects do.
And of course get eco complete substrate for my fish. Once I have enough money.
Sigh. Whores.
I say it like it doesn’t matter. But in truth, I don’t like players.
It’s a turn off if you are easy.
But I guess I am easy, too. I am easy to give a chance. But I am not easy further than that. Anyway, I’m getting senile and lonely! In this cold weather, somebody HOLD ME.
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But it don’t matter. I don’t need it, I suppose. I wish I was good at singing and dancing. I love art, but I wish i was good at all art. I’m so addicted to What Would You Do and BGT videos nowadays. I love seeing other people’s talents.
I wish I were them. I know I can, it’s just, what to put your time into, and in the end, if your input was worth the result. Don’t wanna waste time and have a mediocre result. You can always say experience is worth time, but it’s not really…
I don’t know.
I am happy to see Thai ads being top 3 and a Thai director get #1 ad award. Maybe, maybe! I’ll actually do advertising in college. I don’t know why I chose it. I want to be in a commercial. Not the one making it. But maybe, I’ll love it.
I just want to find someone who is perfect for me. Who makes me want to keep being motivated and supports me 100%. Where are the artsy people out there. Sigh.
Someone who will make something out of nothing, someone who is full of surprises and energy, and things to do.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, be the change you want to see, but I’m just curious to meet the one for me. Mom says they will love me 100000000000000000000x lots.
I need to believe in myself because nobody else will! But Yishu :) Yishu thinks I’m smart
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Finally took pics at the park. :) With DSLR.
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was gonna go to cubby walk!
that didn’t happen.
gonna go to jeff’s!
that didn’t happen.
today, i went to walgreens, pier 21 imports, got glass earrings for a buck, that fish store near school, a pet shop with live dogs and cats and spent an hour petting the same puppy. i went to mcdonalds to get a strawberry pie. went to another walgreens and got 3 shades of eyeliner, forever 21 to get heels ive been loving, then walked home. washed my hair, got ready to go to jeff’s, walked towards school. but i should’ve taken the brown> blue line.
i dont even know why i walked in that direction. i was just hoping to see __________. i passed that area twice. nope. didn’t see _____________. i got kinda lost. it was cold. i got a foot cramp. i sat on a rock in front of a rich apartment. :)
eh, at least it wasn’t a waste. i stole expensive apartment rocks. and found stuff along the sand/park i can put in my fish tank. :D so yeah. wooo!!!!
grace is coming to sleep over. idk when she will be here though, so i dont want to go to jeff’s and then have to leave early, or have grace wait on me.
im not gonna lie didn’t see ___________. should’ve waited when i was with aiyana, but i don’t wanna be a stalker. damn you amy, i hate you. :P
i want to be _______’s friend, too.
i’m stupid. why didn’t i invite ______ to my restaurant. like grace said. i didn’t think it was that close.
ugh
pulls hair-
kinda bummed i didn’t see you. i guess. walked for 2 hours in wedges. the wood is really burning my soles. >.<
but i thought, it would be worth it, if i briefly saw you.
even if it is a “coincidence.”
why even bother with 2 months left :( i dont know. sometimes i get addicted to specific people ;~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~;
i don’t even know what i want from you. obviously i don’t want to date you.
i just like who you are, and idek, seeing you just brightens my dayx100000000
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i was not excited to sit next to you. but i thought you’d be okay. (mere exposure effect from the time we went to the same game)
but now that i will probably never talk to you ever again, i’m super sad ;(
i hated that class, but now that you’re in it i’m a little excited to be there.
you called me cute, but i didn’t think anything then.
now i wish i was your friend ;( now i wish i had talked to you more. interacted more. instead of thinking the boy across from you is cute. because you are so much cuter. even if you are a girl. but i didn’t think that then.
i don’t even have cellphone now, so contact will not be exchanged. you’re not even in the same grade so what are the chances. :*(((
if only we were friends :(
when i didn’t care, you always say hi to me!
now that i care, i feel like i have to make the effort all the time. LOL UGH WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
why are you so dark/sarcastic/ sometimes such a downer but at the same time so funny and bring so much joy to my life?!?!?!?!?!
you are too cool
i realized who truly mattered :) because I only miss them. Though I spent my time not as well as I could have, spring break was great! I lost my phone, so what. Tired of contact all the time.
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i dont see it :(